Hey...

I've had too much to think tonight
I'm sad
I'm touched
Oh, it's alright

I've had too much to think tonight
I'm sad
I'm touched
Oh, it's alright

Don't play maitre'd with me
Go take the adjacent seat you see
The brain seems to be in need of agency
Playin' "wait-and-see" to fill the vacancy
My birth was a mishap
I'm a kid of this craft
No curses or dis raps
Stick jabs in gift wrap
Came to make jokes in the lame hope the chicks laugh
So take notes and place votes
I'll just sit back
Write quips with ice picks so my lyrics might prick
Stick my spirit in a vice grip
Judges bite lips
Everyone and their dog can pen a rap song
Maybe I should focus more on why my head can't stand calm

I want a diagnosis
I want an excuse
I want to try and focus
I want to let loose
I want a prescription
I want a distraction
I want a revision
I want to quit laughin'
I just want control
Yeah, I just want control
I just want control
Yeah, I just want control

Dizzy, dazed and dazzled
I miss the age of rascals
I'd sift the sand of castles and drift to lands of battle
Edit the sad parts
Regretted the bad sparks
Who set it to that dark?
Indebted but have heart
Oh, if it could all be so simple
Spoke wishful
The hole in the soul ripples
Drew blueprints of doomed stints in gruesome detail
The clueless foolish pursuit of the elusive female
For every tooth loose there's a few screws to match
My whole body may collapse if moved soon, in fact
But hey, what's a new bruise but a notch in the belt?
Zoom to the newsroom and watch if they wanna help
Wash it off with a shot of a scotch to let the brain relax
"No, cut the obnoxious talk and state the facts"
I'm strapped to my bed
Bolts attached to my head
The Doc is tapping his pen and I'm laughing instead
He's frustrated, must hate it, but makes do
Takes two, I lay awake awaitin' the breakthrough
I've been chasin' the same truth since I was in grade school
This internal war of my enduring joy and shame's rule

I want a diagnosis
I want to try and focus
I want an excuse
Nah, I want to let loose
I want a prescription
I want a revision
I want a distraction
I just want to quit laughin'
I just want control
Yeah, I just want control
I just want control
Yeah, I just want control

I've had too much to think tonight
I'm sad
I'm touched
Oh, it's alright

I've had too much to think tonight
I'm sad
I'm touched
Oh, it's alright
Oh, it's alright
Oh, it's alright
Oh, it's alright
Oh, it's alright
Oh, it's alright

I've had too much to...
I've had..

Oh, it's alright